Blatherings of an Extroverted Bookworm

I went to sleep around 1:30am. Have been awake since 4am. I am sleepy and tired, and yet wide awake. This is serious bullshit.

I've become a nocturnal creature.

Oh, Insomnia, I am SO OVER you. Please go away and torment some other poor soul for a while Please?

Right, so I was a total dumbass, I slept in late yesterday and then lay down for a nap around 6:30 pm, and didn't get out of bed till 8:45! So here is it, a little after 4am and I am WIDE AWAKE. So screwed. I am keeping myself entertained by reading the mean commentary and silly arguments on the Jennifer Aniston imdb page. Pure gold! A lot of that shit has me LOLing. I guess I'm mean >:D!

OMG, I went to sleep way too late last night and slept like total shiiiiiiiiit and I have to sit in class from 9am-1pm and then head off for a wedding that starts @ 4pm and then the reception is like, 6-11. I guess I can *try* to nap on the train, but man I'm going to be a sleepy wench today. *Wah*wah*bitch*moan*.

I wish I had dropped these CDA classes after my miscarriage. My motivation went straight to the toilet after that and it hasn't really returned. Oh well.

Well, I've been dealing with sleep issues the past week. I've been having trouble falling asleep but worse, staying asleep for more than 4-4 1/2 hours. SO, last night I decided to pull an all-nighter in hope that I will pass out in a heap tonight, thus ending the insanity. I am hopped p on sleeplessness & caffeine, w00t!! LOL, I was all vibrating and chatting extra fast when fings woke up this morning, even I had to laugh. I am using my manic energy to declutter as much as possible, yay! I am hoping to be able to hold out until at least 9:30/10pm tonight.

I won the husband lottery! When I got back to bed after my last post, fings "talked me down" (basically, he gives me a guided relaxation) like he often does when I have trouble falling asleep and it worked. Didn't sleep as much as I would have liked, but the sleep I did get was good and got me through the day :).

My alarm is set to go off at 7:30am, and I have to be at the day care center at 8:30am where I'll be in charge of 4 kids between the ages of 4 and 17 months until 3:30pm. Fuckarama. I've had a long day of doing chores and I'm exhausted. So why am I not sleeping? Wish I knew. Goddamn insomnia. Well, I'd better go and try again for some zzzzzzzzz's.

It's past 3:30am and I'd really like to know why the hell I'm still awake. I guess I have to much crap on my mind. I hate when this happens. The worst part is I'll probably be caught in this cycle for the next few days. Shit.