yolen | Where are my Big Girl Panties?

I am suspecting that my period is on its way soon, and that this is in large part hormonal. But knowing that doesn't change the fact that right now I want to flee to parts unknown. Or, hide under my sheet with books and have the world understand that I want it to leave me alone! I feel overwhelmed by a big pile of crap. I don't want to deal with my messy apartment and all the crap that needs to be gotten rid of and cleaned and organized, I don't want to deal with being fat and infertile, I don't want to deal with the efffing condo association bullcrap, I don't want to deal with sending out job applications, and I don't want to deal with the disaster that is my family. I want to hide, read, take a nap, drink soda, eat chocolate and just say "FUCK EVERYTHING" and mean it.

Sigh.

I'd better go work on the kitchen. Baby steps, baby steps...